In his own time!

I want to go back at least a good ten years when I began praying...praying hard EVERYDAY that God would bless me with a child. Days went by....years went by...my faith shaken, my soul aching it just wasn't happening.  I had no idea why God wasn't listening to me!  I had to ask myself all kinds of questions...was I praying wrong?  Should I not pray for a child at all?  I did change the way I prayed and I just started asking for God to do his will in my life, whatever that may or may not be.  I also prayed for God to take the longing from my heart if I wasn't supposed to be a mother.  Believe it or not I was at peace with where I was in my life.  Accepting if you will that I was not going to have children of my own.  I suffered the miscarriages...I suffered the doctors saying it would not happen for me.  But the longing never ever changed.  So here I am three years later at 11 pm decorating my house with Batman decor for the most adorable three year old boy.  I can't believe where life has taken me!  I can't believe that all those years I was heartbroken I should have just been still!  I know God hears all prayers of all kinds in all different ways.  And I can tell you he heard and answered mine...IN HIS TIME...IN HIS PERFECT TIME!  I am the mom I want to be, and the wife I want to be and he knew when to place it all in my life!  So for anyone whose faith is shaken, for anyone who questions God.  Please have faith that with him all things are possible.  My Hunter is proof of miracles and the light of my life!  Happy Birthday my sweet boy, your mama loves you more than you will ever know!